Donn's Tales

Donn's Depot. My watering hole. I'm sure my "devoted followers" are familiar with the place, most of my goings-on happen either at work or at Donn's, which is where I go after almost every shift. It's nice to wind down and have a couple of drinks with your friends (ranging from ages 21 to 75) and also nice to walk in and not have to say a word to the bartender and he/she hands you a Miller Lite. Donn's is where the old but still partying folks come around 8 every night, cut a rug, and try not to break a hip. It's also the place where service industry kids come to unwind after a long day of waiting on people's dumbasses. The two crowds seem to mesh fairly well.

Most nights I know everyone there and when someone brings in a stranger from the outside, including myself who brings in friends from time to time, I get real nervous. Good Lord, it's like a lion's den in there. Most of the time I don't dare bring in a guy I'm seeing, way too many questions ensue and most of my friends (who happen to be men) look at the guy like he's the anti-Christ, silently sizing him up. Later they will bring me his carcass like a large cat would bring home an antelope for the herd, proud and pleased with the kill. (Thanks, guys.)

A friend of mine brought in a British girl the other day and you would have thought she was Princess Di. The poor girl couldn't carry on a conversation with anyone lest someone overhear her British accent and pop their way right into the mix. Her man-friend was less than pleased. I tried once to save her but gave up quickly due to the overabundance of man-crowding and shoving and continued onto the corner where I eat peanuts by myself and pretend to watch Sportscenter.

Donn's is also the spot of many a walked tabs and many a disappearing face. You can be carrying on a pleasant argument with someone concerning who had more affect in the lives of African Americans? Lincoln or Martin Luther King? and the next thing you know, you're fellow debater has flown the coop. Of course, in the bar world this is known as Houdini-ing. Some call it the Disappearing Act, some call it "She's Just an Asshole." (I prefer Houdini). It's a great way to cut out just at the right time so you don't have to go around and hug everyone, and tell everyone what a great time you had, and "OH MY GOD, I'LL FREAKING SEE YOU TOMORROW! DO WE HAVE TO DO THIS EVERYTIME!?"

No.

But people love to say bye. Love it. And when appropriate, like at Christmas and Super Bowl Sunday, I'll go around and tell everyone bye and I love you and all that good stuff. But not at the bar. It's not necessary. Which is why most night's, I prefer the Houdini.

The anti-Houdinis

Once, while on the porch of Donn's Depot, I had a hankering to leave. And once I get the hankering, it's hard to shake. I had to leave immediately. I stood up with my purse, quietly hoping no one would take much notice, but no such luck. My friends directly called me out on my disappearing attempt so I tried to quell them, "I'm just going to the bathroom guys. See? I'll leave my beer and koozie here. I'll be right back." And snuck off into the night. Directly after my departure, and from what my friends told me later, Best Friend Bo appeared, inquiring as to my whereabouts. Our mutual friends assured him, "She just went inside. See? She left her koozie here."

Bo scoffed, "That's not Brynnan's good koozie. That's a disposable koozie. She's gone."

He knows me so well.

Another once upon a time at Donn's, two of my favorite old time regulars, Winker and David Allen, were getting fairly tipsy on one side of me, while two of my younger male friends were getting also rather tipsy on the other side of me. David Allen pronounced, loudly and in slurs, "You gotta make a decision, honey! Which one is it gonna be!?" And while I thought that he was referring to my male companions to my left, I said hastily, "Oh, no D.A., I have very little interest in these two clowns."

DA: "No. What's it gonna be? Me? Or Winker? You gotta decide. You can't have both."

Winker (with drunken, embarrassed, 63-year-old laughter): "Yeah, sugar. Chose one or the other!"

Me (with pleading eyes at the bartender): "umm..."

DA (slyly, steadily) : "I gotta lotta... grated cheese... at home."

Winker: "I can lick my eyelid."

DA (loudly now, standing, still drunk): "I fought for your freedom in the war!"

Winker: "Well, you can't beat that."

Me... Houdini.

I used to have to watch "CatDog" with my little sister.

I like cats better than dogs. Cats are assholes. And lazy. And really fun to torture. You can put duct tape on their front legs and watch them do the-floor-is-hot dance, or you can apply peanut butter to their nose and watch them freak out in hopes of cleaning it off. My favorite is Cat in a Bag. I used to put my Shop Kitty in a laundry bag, kind of gently swing it back and forth and threaten the kitty that I was going to throw him in the bottom of the river. All the while singing a little tune I made up called "cat in a bag at the bottom of the river." It's a Whaley Family classic now.

It's not fair that people can say they hate cats but you're hard pressed to find the asshole who's man enough to say she hates dogs. Well... I don't care for dogs. Inside dogs that is. Where I'm from, a dog lives, breaths, sleeps, eats and stays outside. No questions asked. If you see the dog inside the house, you gasp in horror and run and hide so you don't get blamed for it. And I didn't know that people physically paid money for mutts until I moved to Austin. I overheard someone say they wanted a wienerschnitzel or some such half breed as that and that they were willing to pay, oh, I don't know, $500 bucks for this pooch.

Me: Meeehhhhrrrr? Errrr, heeeeh?!? A-say a-say, whaaaaa? You want to PAY MONEY for that dog? Five hundred big ones? For that stupid little dog? I don't understand.

And I still don't. If you want a new dog in the country, you go over to your friend's house and ask when their dog is having puppies. But mostly you just kind of come into a dog in the country. People love dumping animals in the country, so you just go outside and there's probably a dog already there and then, poof, you have a new pet. And you probably just will call him Puppy or Dog or something really clever like that.

And when the dog gets ill, you don't take it to the vet to pay him (!?) to put the thing down, you call your Cousin Jeff to come out and shoot the dog and put him out of his misery, as well as save you from spending hundreds of dollars in bills ON A DOG.

When I was a young pup myself, we had this family dog that was pretty much the end all be all of canines. He was a black lab, beautiful, smart, and really something. Pa taught the dog how to track deer that had been shot out in the woods and retrieve them if they had been wounded and lost, saving the deer from dying a slow and miserable death all the while pleasing the hunter with the finding of his kill. Dad would come home looking like he had been attacked by a bear because Tracker would pull him through briars and fences and he had to keep ahold of the leash lest he lose Tracker and the deer. Tracker found many a deer out in Hamilton County. He also got shot accidentally in the neck once, helped us raise four raccoons and would sit in the garage and listen to Dad as he worked. Raddest dog ever.

And then Tracker got sick and started seizing one morning, and as upset as we all were, Dad called his sister's husband to come over and shoot our family dog. My sister, mother and I waited in the house when we heard the shot, me crying over my cereal bowl.

I don't think I started this blog with intentions of chastising anyone with dogs, or anyone who pays any given amount for the purchase or health of their dog, it just kind of spun out of control. Dogs are sometimes okay and you can do with them what you please. As long as your dog doesn't lick my face. Their butt-licking tongues on human faces? You have got to be kidding me.

The real point is that I love torturing cats. Torture is a harsh word. Teasing cats for my enjoyment is more like it. Right before this blog, my roommate's cat wanted outside and I knew she wanted out, but instead of letting her out, I put a blanket on top of her and then opened the door. She could smell the rain and out of doors just a few steps in front of her, but she couldn't reach it (what with the blanket over her). And I laughed. Out loud. For a good two minutes. By myself.

And then there's this.

See? Cats are assholes. Love 'em.

XANAX! It's like a hug... Except, not really.

I deactivated my Fbook account. Which means not only that I got solid sick of people's boring children/how-I'm-feeling/what-I'm-about-to-do posts (plus sifting through which people I would unsubscribe to or just plain un-friend), I am going to be writing a lot more on my blog. I have ideas, people. Ideas!

Cleo's all: "God BRYNNAN! You can't deactivate, you post every time I have to piss!" (No.) But yes, I do have things in my head and The Book is the best way to get that out there. Or maybe not? Maybe I've been drinking.

Maybe last night was the single most worst night of my life?

There have been a few.

Once, in what I was sure was a good idea, I gathered all my ex-boyfriend's clothing laying about my house and took a permanent marker to every item, decorating his garb with niceties and poetry and heartfelt things, mostly stuff like "EFF YOU, YOU PIECE OF SHIT" and "I HOPE YOU EAT SHIT AND DIE," and you know... pleasantries like that. Then I went over to his house where he was entertaining some female companions of sorts and strew all his worthless crap all over his yard, knocked on the door and drove away. (Older, wiser sister on the phone that night: "Brynnan, I really think this is a bad idea.")

Another night (same poor boyfriend) had to endure the 21-year-old gal who had never indulged in tequila, and she who after the first few tastes, and for no real reason, proceeded to beat the ever loving shit out of said boyfriend. Boyfriend, well tempered as he was, quietly wrestled me down and sent me on my way. (Wow, somehow, that guy always comes out really great in stories, and me, not so much). Sidenote: I have since learned that punching men in the face is just plain not fair. I have also learned how to control my tequila intake in order to keep the "inside anger" quelled. Sometimes.

Of course, there's always the night you get the phone call that... same boyfriend!? why does this guy keep popping up!?... has been battered in the head and has a subdural hematoma and you gotta drive two hours because he's asking for you and well, he might die. Pretty vivid/horrid night.

And then last night.... happened too soon to even be funny right now! Wounds are still fresh. People are still angry. Namely me. I will say that if you are crying and your significant other/ex-boyfriend offers you a Xanax instead of solace/comfort/love, then that person is not worth much effort on your part. Sometimes all a person needs is a good old-fashioned hug. And some people (some men) don't know how to offer that kind of comfort. And that is not okay in my book.

My older sister and I used to fight. A lot, duh. We were children, and it was all about who built the better fort that week and who got to play with the deer eyeball and whatnot. And yes, there were broom sticks wrapped around small ribcages during chores and there were surprise shower attacks which ended in broken glass doors and cake donuts placed strategically in panty drawers, so what? But when we fought, our father would A) make us glove up and box, then B) hug. We fought and then we hugged. And said we loved each other. It was forced, naturally, and the two of us would do the whole stand face-to-face thing and I would pretend put my head on her shoulder and our arms would be dangling in nonchalance, but Father would not allow it. We had to "PUT YOUR ARMS AROUND EACH OTHER!" and look each other in the eye and say "I love you," and by that time, it was so ridiculous and hilarious that we were looking at each other and laughing, red Everlast boxing gloves wrapped tightly around each other.

AND THAT is how you end a fight. Not with prescription drugs. Moron.

And so, with that in mind, I have decided I need to start dating again. (This can only provide entertainment for my dedicated blog followers, because if there's anything I hate more than dating, it's that I love blogging about horrible dates). And I think I'm going to start dating some nerdy guy or something because I watched Weird Science for the first time tonight and dude, those dudes are cute. And nerds are always better than jocks or something like that. Plus, a nerd would probably talk to me about Hemingway and stuff like that. Which would be super rad. So long as he doesn't play video games.

And then I'll leave you these two songs. One, Mumford' and Sons: Little Lion Man (so apropos), and my newest and most favorite band right now, The Soldier Thread's: Anybody. Both lyrics are poignant, fitting and meaningful if you really want to get the whole feel of this blog.

I have no idea what I have been babbling about or where this blog went. I hope it is well-written and mildly entertaining. Good night, fellow Mexicans.

love! in a bottle

Some people smoke after work, some people kill things.

Saturday night I came home to a ridiculous ruckus in my kitchen. I had kind of been drinking and the house was pretty dirty so I thought for sure a possum was in the trash can. I stood in my bedroom doorway, which is right off the kitchen, in horror as I assumed some large critter had somehow made it's way into the house. I mean, the clamoring was pretty loud. I go to sleep.

Sunday, Roommate cleans house while I am out with my mother and sister. Good, maybe possum got scared of the clean and left from whence he came. She also tells me that Cat ran into the house the other day carrying unidentified object in mouth and when she dropped it in her food bowl, it scurried away. (Lucy, doing exactly NOT what cats are supposed to do with mice.) Well, good. At least now we know the ruckus is a mouse. But Good Lord, it sounds huge.

And as I am standing in kitchen, talking to roommate later that afternoon, noise ensues again. Frightened, Roommate and I both jump onto the counter.

"OMG. Mouse is stuck in trap! And dragging it around making a much more gigantic noise than it's size!" I realize.

Now this means that one of us is going to have to physically retrieve the trap, mouse and all, and dispose of it properly.

Crap.

We try the ole broom method but only succeed in pushing mouse closer to under the stove, not good.

"I'm going to have to actually grab the whole thing. Mouse and all," I decide. Gross.

So I reach under our counter where we have removed the base board and grab the trap, little mouse fighting with all it's might to pull away from me, one arm and leg stuck in trap, which might come undone any minute and mouse might run up my arm and into my mouth. I pull myself together and pull out the trap with mouse, Roommate diving out of the way in the same sheer terror I am feeling, and take it out to curbside trash can where I throw it in, still alive. Mission accomplished.

I wash up and head to work. All the while carrying around this terrible feeling that mouse is still alive in trash. Get home from work, eat some pasta and drink some wine with Roommate, still thinking about mouse.

Now at some point, I smell rotting watermelon rinds in the kitchen trash and have to take it out. This means I have to face the poor mouse again. (Dread). I can't just throw more trash on top of this little guy and hope he dies in a few hours. I should have beat him to death with the broom! I should have smashed him with a brick! Oh my gosh, I feel terrible! So I take him out, still attached to trap, and put him in the yard. Perhaps Lucy will finish what she started! But no, she noses the mouse in disgust and moves on with her life, rolling around in the dirt next to him, suffering, and panting pretty heavily and now, scared out of his mind from the cat encounter, doing this circular dance because one side of his body is stuck in the trap. And I'm just standing there with a flashlight watching this pitiful display.

Roommate and I discuss. "We can't leave him like this. What do we do!?"

Roommate: "Maybe we should drown him?"

Me: "Ew. Are you gonna hold him down?"

Roommate: "Maybe we could string up a little noose and hang him."

Me: "Oooo, yeah! We could hang it up in Other Roommate's Room. No! We're just getting weird now. "

Roommate: "Or we could nail him to a board."

Me: "Okay, now you're just talking about crucifying the mouse. We need Second Roommate, she will know what to do."

And so nothing really gets accomplished and we drink more wine.

Roommate #2 comes home and after hearing sad mouse story, berates me for letting this go on and decides, yes, we need to kill it and she decides what's best it to cut it's little head off and she will be the one to do it. And while I know R2 is a strong woman who could do the job, I cannot let her endure this, so I stand up to the plate.

I go into my room and retrieve my memorabilia Winchester hunting knife which has never left it's case until this point, grab the flashlight and go out into the yard, R2 following. Mouse, still alive, gives one last circle dance, I instruct R2 to look away, and with the most ease, and really almost like butter*, cut off mouse's head, mouse letting out the most awful squeaking noise one has ever heard. (I didn't hear anything.)

R2 claims mouse is still alive because his head is convulsing, but I assure her, he is dead, he just doesn't know it yet. And while I assure her by going over the laceration again, I end up kind of pushing the mouse into the earth, leaving only it's tail above ground, which is wagging out of control. ("Stop it, mouse, you're making such a scene.")

We go inside, leaving mouse for some wild animal to hopefully dispose of. I feel good about mouse's misery ending, yet I find that I am shaking vehemently. While I have killed wild animals before, it was always for some greater good, ie: to feed my family who most often couldn't afford brand name cereal. And all those times I shot a deer or rabbit or squirrel, I found that I was shaking afterward but I thought it was just excitement. Now, after I have killed mouse in such a horrifying fashion, I find that it was adrenaline.

Great.

*Come to find out, after speaking with my most trusted mouse resources, a mouse can be killed merely by stepping on it, one strike with a broom or rock of your choice, or simply by squeezing it's little bones in your hand. There really is no need to get your Winchester hunting knife you got for Christmas involved. Sicko.